Life on Edge

I just read all those scriptures, and all I can say is sorry. Honestly I don't even know what I'm apologizing for, I'm just crying and crying as I type this out but I shouldn't have to explain that to anyone and honestly I don't know why I am, perhaps seeing a counselor is best, perhaps I really am crazy. All I can do is try, give me one chance. What's the problem here, I don't see a ring on that hand? Is this really the new age battle "bottle", just because I can't figure my "shit" out, I'm going to write a book about it? Well I suppose, all things come around to bite you in the "ass". I realize now, that "gossip" is wrong. And all I can do is....rap about it, be about it. "Sabatoge". My friends are awesome, and at the end of the day it all really makes sense. Let's see where this journey leads us.

Take two. Bars, Xanax prescription pills. Getting high off life to realize you really are a dumb ass, but you know what all happens in the end? Just a little bit of paradise boo. Just a little bit of paradise.

I'm calling you boo right now for a reason, bc when it "she" all gets back up and done "down". She falls down for a reason.

And in the end, I suppose you could call it love "lust".  Because you're willing to do almost anything to sacrifice yourself for that person, and when you constantly have a guilty conscience about something, at the end of the day you will remember. So here I am typing myself all out, a blank canvas for the world to see. Describing every inch of my dark, rigid soul. Oh, and in the end you know what I truly realize? Family. Family is the key to life.

No matter what, they will ALWAYS be there, to pick you up when you fall. Kind of like "candy". Sugar, a dope of means when you're tired. You know what it all really boils down too? REALIZING this yourself. Because truly, and utterly you didn't need to speak a word of it to me. & I guess, everything takes time and we all realize things on our own. So perhaps my journey through life I'll just be sitting here throwing stones. Get it?

Yeah, thanks. Now society in this day in age can't even take a hint, a wee leap of faith. We're all testing the waters in some way right?

Just know that at the end of the day, I will be by your side wherever you fall.





And if this turns out to be some sort of humiliation efforts of like "death" and "rising". You taught me a lesson, and I should never mistake true beauty for someone with devils and a horn.

Constantly praying and praying that their life will be changed around because when it all is said and done? Aren't we all in our little "cage" of paradise.

Which brings me back to point one, why can't you just accept that people truly are kind hearted and lovely creatures to be around? A glass of wine never hurt a soul. And I'll remember this all in the morning, trust me. It's all I've been "raging" about.

So when life comes to you with lemons, at the end of the day would you rather drink the lemonade by yourself or with a friend? Because truly that is the lesson of life. And while walking and talking and "being about it" just remember your testimony is what truly matters.

Nourish your body, lovely. You only have one. Remember when it all seems to be too much, just take a step back and realize you really could be in a box.


And this is what I call let it be, people. While waging wars on humanity, I'm raging wars with myself. I forgot to grow up a little bit and not be a "dead beat dad". And when it comes to that little "notch", think do you really wanna spend twenty dollars to paint? "Sabatoge".

We all have our highs, if coffees yours, let's have a cup together? It's that truly that hard to comprehend? And that my friends, is a realization. I hope you keep my secret, because I'm keeping yours too. Bounce it around, let's see what it can do.

And basically what I'm happy to say is, thank you thank you for waking me up.