Harder

This is alot harder than I thought it would be. I meant it when I said I was done. I am done. Done with your crap, our constant dance of hostility and anger. Thinking your better than I am because you only know things in black and white, Because of your inability to feel. I tried to convince myself I didnt care, I didnt love you or it just didn't matter. Now to today I sit a little pain in my heart, saddness in my mind and tears in my eyes. I'm know I will ok. Things will be different. I don't think I will be able to find someone to fullfill my needs the way you did though you didn't fullfil all of them. A year not wasted filled with memories, good and bad. I actually miss you. Thats what makes it hard. You would think I wouldnt. I know your unfeeling and uncaring. You didnt think of me when we were together, so I know I dont cross your mind now. I know you don't miss me the way I miss you. So you think it would be easier but its not its harder.