Waiting

The middle feels like a waste
I detest being stuck in one place
Waiting
How I hate it
Pacing,
Clawing the walls,
Thinking
Is there something I missed?
I have questions --
What's the lesson in this?
What's the message?

A sign would be nice
with an arrow --
Pointing the right direction

If a sign is too clear
A hint would subdue
My oppression --
A few words as a clue
for my silent review
My discretion --

If there is naught to be sent
without epic event
I can learn from ill-boding disaster
Armageddon --
Sometimes it takes the biggest of bangs
For a hint or a clue to sink through
I'm hard headed

If not in red letters
Like headlining news
Or sent out on feathers
Secret warnings to use
Or more metaphoric
Like symbols and cues
I am rendered
aimless and pending
I'm impatient
I can't stand the...

Wait --
I think I get it;
Patience is made
in the time that it takes
to refine --
A virtue you'll find I am lacking

I don't deny
the weakness in me
But I'm asking --
Can we pick up the speed?
I'm requesting --
I'll beg if need be
Whatever it takes
But don't make me wait
Goodness sakes!