a battered heart

my heart shed a tear that day ,  but
i would much rather it be shattered .
at least that way pieces are easier to gather .
nothing hurts more than to be hurt by the one you love the most .
as he stood over me w. balled fists I wished my soul could be revoked .
worthless , powerless , effortless , I lost all sight of hope .
my heart cried as loud as it could until my soul was soaked .
I know I don't deserve it , no matter what may come when I part my lips .
I try to think positive , " at least I know I can take a hit ".
i blame myself , I feel like I will never make it .
traumatized , lost , the feeling I have , I could never fake it .
losing yourself is harder when you've already lost your way .
I never knew it could get this bad . but I have hope that tomorrow is a better day .