why do I keep forgetting

I keep forgetting not to dwell in
Excitement every time I get the sliest
Attention from someone that actually
talks to me only to ask about a person
They assume knows me
I keep forgetting not to be so kind
Because people take it the wrong way
And think I can't live without them,
For your information I do well in being isolated
From society and the media but I will
Always be present for those that acknowledge
My kindness and appreciate it
I keep forgetting not to open up to a person
That barely knows me but its funny I allow them
To open up as much as they want with me which
I find fucked up and keep asking myself what the fuck
Is wrong with me, really Lindi?
I keep forgetting to tell myself
Not to compare my grades with that
Of a genius because I am my own genius
I mean from a below 10 performer to a nothing
Below 50 to 60% I personally salute myself.
I keep forgetting never to give up because my parents
Didn't waste almost a million over the 12 years
Of education for me to end up a housewife
I keep forgetting to respect my parents because
Without them I wouldn't be this weird, funny looking,
Crazy, loving, caring, goofy, random, naughty e.t.c person
I am today...
Why do I keep forgetting me?