Fathers mistake

 He's suppose to hold your heart
especially when your world is falling apart
Hold your hand in time of need
be there with a towel when she cuts her arms and bleeds
Tell her its ok when she knows its not
help her try to end the screams in the back of her head even when she knows its never going to stop.
How much longer must she pretend
that barely knowing you is tearing her apart on the other end.
Dad, is that what shes suppose to call you?
even though you were never there for her.. you have no clue.
Remember you told her to always be brave
that in times of needs you would be the one to save?
You said you will be back but never turned around
Do you see that helpless girl over there on the ground?
Your so fucked up in the head you probably don't know my name
hahaha I give up I don't want to play this game
There's this dark hall that I cant seem to escape
the demons and monsters are waiting patiently for their take
They tell me its over that I can come home now
my screams must be silent to you because you don't hear that sound.
I'm your daughter not your fucking toy
You put me down like your old fire truck trying to avoid
Deep down I believed your cared
But father.. you were never there..
Deep down I believed you loved me
Then I realized no one does and now things are clearer to see
I'm sorry at age 5-6 I pushed you away
I guess I always counted on a father to stay
I'm your biggest mistake I know
Promise you will end my suffering after this show?
Daddy's little girl.. I wish I was
Fake a smile for they believe I forgot about you.. they think I'm tough