You

What is this emotion?
It crashes all over my mind,
Like vast waves in deep ocean.
It's a mental ghost,
Haunting me where ever I go.
It's a parasite, and I'm the dreadful host.
My life is a song on repeat,
Every day the same thing,
Heard it so much I know every beat.
Why can't I be happy?
All I can do is pretend,
but It just makes me feel more crappy
I remember seeing you for the first time.
I didn't notice you that much,
But it was the first time I saw a dime.
Those days I was still with my girlfriend,
I was in love but she made me feel blue.
I honestly knew our relationship would come to an end,
But it's ok because right now, I just want to spend my time with you.