fresh start

why did i have my eyes closed, when it should have been clear to see ,that i had a beautiful family , and so much love surrounding me ,they say you never realize what you have until its gone and to late, and i would give anythin ,my heart,my soul, to be on the otherside of that gate,the gate to our family home ,were the memories of our chldren have grown , but now im on the out side and i feel so alone , i had to move away because the pain was just to much to bare,even tho my heart is still beating somewere inside theres a tare , i hardly see my children and thats the hardest thing to take, how could i have lost so much , over a series of stupid mistakes ,now ive started fresh, new job, new town,new home ,i keep in touch with my children every night on the phone,even tho its not the same as bein able to kiss and hold them tight ,but a fresh start is what i needed to heal , and make my self feel right, but one thing i have learned on this hard road of sorrow and pain . ill always have my eyes open and never be blind again