Oblivion

I feel like I'm suffocating.

I can't breath.

At first I thought it was the running,
But now I can tell there's a difference.

My head is swirling with anxiety and anticipation.
My mouth is dry, nothing lives there anymore.

Every time I try to swallow my throat collapses inward
And my stomach leaps to my mouth, pushing it's way out.

I try to calm myself down, forcing air in as my body starts to fail, shutting itself down.

It's given up and it wants me to do the same.

But I won't.

I'm on the edge.
My balance swims in and out.
I push myself, egging on my strength
Trying to prove something,
Though I don't know what.

Slowly I lose control, only just making it to the bathroom when it all comes up.

The lunch I never had leads way to dry heaves,
Which brings the tears that never fall.

No longer can I fight the inevitable.

My body slumps limply to the floor,
My head drooping, my damp stringy hair curtains my face
As I fall off

Into oblivion.