Ex lover

My lips.. So numb, so swollen, so afraid to crack under the weight of the words that must be spoken, because this is not what love is, I can no longer live ankles deep in misery know you're really not that into me, I just make you feel good when need be, but with your eyes half shut you cannot see me, you're so full of lust, no love, I always knew that, but that thought I would shove, because love can blind you so bad, your heart can make you so oblivious, so ignorant, I need to leave you alone, you've disgraced my throne, cracked my crown, every time you look me up in down because I can never catch your eyes, your gaze so distracted by what god sculpted you forgot to look at the soul god gave as a gift to you,. Dear ex lover, by the time you read this you'll know why, baby it's been a year, you've never looked me in my eyes.