Let me tell you how I really feel (the things that I say)

Why do I keep saying the things that I say
And push you further and further away
Making mistakes blot into even darker stains
As I live in my brain, surrounded by rain,
Messing up everything I wanted to stay
Like a fool, like a dummy, a self fulfilling prophesy?

I'm full circle, slipping back to the way it begins
I feel I'm about to lose my very best friend
And I'm not sure I'm ready for this to end
But somehow I'm making it happen again
Like a fool, like a dummy, a self fulfilling prophesy.

I don't know how to stop as I keep on typing
I'm crumbling inside and just keep on writing
I reveal my newest insecurities, sloppily, hoping you'll see
I'm a fool, a dummy, slipping down this self fulfilling prophesy.

I feel out of control and don't know what to do...
I was simply hoping that somehow you
Could stop this fool, this dummy....

From losing.....
You.

But I don't even know if I deserve it.