The battle of a lifetime.

It's been rough since hearing the news,
Lately I've been drowning in my own pain
While buying all sorts of drugs to abuse
I can't face the truth and tears fall like rain

You're the one person that I can depend on
It's been like that for as long as I can remember
I wonder what I'd do if someday you'd be gone
Would I be stricken with sorrow forever & ever?

I feel broken and empty,depressed and upset
I cry out to God in contempt and fading strength
I've prayed but none have been granted as of yet
I feel like I'm to blame for your pains and aches

Mom, you've raised me into a honest man in life
The journey has been a blessing in faith and love
As you lay in waiting to die won't you win this fight?
I'll fight this battle with you and I'll never ever give up.

Special note:I just found out that my mother has cancer
In her brain.I'm devastated and although I'm living everything
Seems so surreal.I'm broken...