"Sweet Dreams" Through My Eyes

 
"This is the time when you need a friend  
You just need someone near"  
 
I wandered in the recesses of my mind, Darling  
I was falling deeper and deeper into depression.  
I was questioning myself...at my CORE,  
I was questioning who I was, what I believed...  
I was so...LOST...I had just kinda given up..  
I met you...and it was a light in my mind...  
blinding my darkness shrouded eyes.  
I was drawn to you..like a moth to flame.  
 
"I'm not looking forward to the night  
I'll spend thinking of you when you're not here"  
 
Every day, when we part, I miss you so very much.  
I think of you constantly, hands itching to grab  
up my phone and message you, just to see if you are still there.  
I eat, wondering what you have eaten that day.  
I breathe and wonder what the air smells like where you are.  
I sleep and you are all I dream about..  
The green eyes that saved my sanity...
I believe it now...that you will be there,  
now and forever...but the compulsion still rides me.  
 
"How many times will I think about the things  
I'd like to do"  
 
This rings in my head, as I imagine  
how I would love you, worship you,  
be your everything...anything...  
Future daydreams..of the time we'd spend together..  
Our lives, loves, children and dreams fulfilled.  
How I want to touch your body, and discover  
every inch of you...I want to find each freckle,  
every scar...and I want to kiss them.  
Oh the things I'd like to do are so naughty sometimes...  
 
"Always denied the right to live my life the way I want  
I want to share it with you"  
 
Agonizing over how much I want to hold you close,  
be held by you...wanting and needing your arms around me...  
You're always just around the corner  
I just can't get over how much I love you.  
I want all of you. Good with bad and beyond.  
I find myself wondering where that hole in my heart went.  
It's not just the attraction I feel for you...
just that you are the completion to my soul  
Which I have always searched for, without knowing.
 
"Close your eyes  
I want to ride the skies in my sweet dreams  
Close your eyes  
I want to see you tonight in my sweet dreams"  
 
Oh those dreams! Every one of them a precious memory.  
I can't remember every detail as they have faded a bit...  
But when I first wake up, If I am lucky,  
I can write them down.  
The sweetest time I have ever spent has been with you,  
and those dreams reflect that.  
The connection feels stronger and every one of them  
are as if living it there, in person.  
I feel your every touch, your every kiss  
like white hot fire ripping through my soul.  
Searing me, branding me even deeper yours.  
 
"I'll think of your kiss as the days roll by  
And I'll write the words you love"  
 
Hoping that you will kiss me eventually,  
Anticipating the feeling of your mouth on mine.  
Soft, tender and soul deep, or hot - raging  
out of control passionate clashing of lips and tongues?  
Either one works for me, so long as I get to taste you.  
You inspire my muse, Darling.  
You cause my brain and heart to open up and sing.  
Flow from my fingers or soar from my voice.  
YOU are causing these feelings, Shey'kreth'Ashke.  
I will write your every detail, describe in prose  
just how beautiful you are to me.  
Your SELF, your heart, your body....  
Sonnets and Odes just for you  
 
"What I can't say in a letter  
Will just have to wait till I get home"  
 
Some of the stuff I want to say...to show you...  
I need you here to do. I need to be able  
to look you in the eyes, and touch your face...  
to close you in my encompassing embrace.  
Hours spent simply enfolded within your arms
The absolute joy in the fantasies of you visiting,
not just for me, but the children meeting you
And when you walk into my outstretched arms,
Fold your own around my form  
Me softly greeting you, welcoming you, finally, home.
 
"There's not much time to tell you  
Half the things I should"  
 
The times we have spent together fly by  
so quickly and are never enough.  
My heart aches for yours when we must part.  
Working my way through hours of school
I lose all track, only knowing that I am  
connected to you at all times.  
Knowing that every time I hear your voice,  
I quake a bit inside. I think of you  
and how we talk, and I burn for you.  
And I could spend eternity writing this over and over...  
and it would never be enough...  
to describe just how fully I have fallen for you.  
 
"Only that I'm so glad I fell in love with you  
And I'd do it again if I could"  
 
Every day this joy expands, being in love and loved brings me strength.
You are the the crisp winter morning, bracing, refreshing  
Filled with the quiet exultation of slumbering forests.  
Yet you warm me inside and out, Darling.  
Falling scared me...But it feels so fucking good.  
The emotions that arise when I think of  
how deeply it flows through my veins...  
There is NO description that can give flight  
to the raptures suffusing my very being.  
I could lose myself to you for the rest of all Eternity  
and it would be MY Elysium.  
 
"Sleep like a child resting deep  
You don't know what you give me I keep  
For these moments alone"  
 
I will watch over your rest, my love,  
my life , my light, my soul husband.  
I am always there, just over your shoulder,  
or in your hands...as you will.  
I will always talk to you...Even if I am asleep.  
Wake me up baby. because sleep could  
never be as important as what you have to tell me.  
I would never choose a dream over  
the moments I crave to spend in your arms.  
I will drop whatever I am doing to spend a moment  
or two or FOREVER with you, in your arms,  
Just talking, just touching, snuggling, just being a companion.  
or kissing, licking, sucking, fucking...  
Being with you is the most wonderful thing I have  
ever done. You make me want to be a better person.
You bring me calm, Darling.  
You bring balance to my crazy, Ashke...  
Throw me into another world of topsy turvy wonder...  
the one where you belong at the center of the universe.  
Where you are loved as you deserve,
You make me feel beautiful, loved,  
cherished, wanted, needed,  
and it makes me feel so amazing,  
high on a cloud just floating along in bliss.
More lofty than any drug could possibly bring me  
I want you to know that I love you with all of me...  
every atom of my being buzzing for you.  
I want to spontaneously explode in a blaze of glory.  
To burn to ash and gone in your eyes