Can't Take This

I'm falling apart in my mind
yet no one can notice by looking at me
all too busy to give me the time of day
I don't know if I can take this

My only home seems to be
in the bottom of every filled up ashtray
killing myself slowly
there's no point to continue pushing on

I'm slipping back into my old ways
old thoughts, old feelings, old actions
stone cold, turning bitter again
I don't want you to see this

No amount of cigarettes can numb me
I'm afraid that I am too far gone
No one can try to fix me
there is no point in trying

You can not kill what you
had no influence on inventing
listen to me when I say there is no point
in trying to destroy this feeling
I'm afraid happiness is only a distant dream
I am not going to take this anymore.