I miss you mom

Hi mom!! I just wanted to say hello...and to tell you that i miss your company like you wouldn't ever know...i think most of all tho...i miss your smell n smile...they're both treasures and i haven't had those pleasures in a while...its been way past overdue...the way you laugh is over cute...so when you pass..how am i ever gonna get over you...is that even optional, or something i must learn to do...on my own...as a man...i guess im writing you this because i really dont understand... how i can ever grow as a man without my number one fan...my mother...someone who i can conversate with as if she was one of my brothers...its no wonder why we get along so well...because at one time our relationship was goin thru hell...time heals all wounds n we choose not to dwell...thats how...n no matter how much we would act wild...you stuck around and lasted..one question n i just have to ask it..how when everything felt so drastic you still overcame n didnt pick the casket?...i feel there's only two words to describe why you were so amazing to your babies...unconditional love...mama..im really missin your hugs...i feel like i need a good squeeze from you at this very moment...your love has me very open...n i thank you for the experience...to love someone without fearing it is the merriest feeling a man can experience...im serious..i love you without limits or hesitation...just to tell you I'd rent air time on tv and then address the nation...n thats because i feel you're the best at making me feel blessed and safe in.. your presence...your mere essence is clear and it cant be compared to peasants...you taught me some of life's most fiercest lessons...n i thank you for making me healthy enough to hear the message...