Blacking out

Why is it that when I cry you watch?
Is this a punishment?
Embarass me to tears, then embarass me some more?
Or are you just reading into me?
Why? You act like I'm so hard to figure out.
It doesn't take much for me to be unhappy, at least not anymore.
I used to be so strong, but you have completely broken me.
I used to speak my mind, now I am silent.
I obey every command, like the good little girl everyone thinks I am.
Trying, unsucessfully, to avoid trouble.
My mind is going blank.
Yelling at me won't help, I won't remember any of this in a matter of minutes.
I'm going to black out again. Can some one help me?
When I awake, you'll be gone.
Your angry that I couldn't hold on longer