Epic Love-poem #2058

for _________ with love

I.

as I have said
so many times before
don’t know how it happened
never meant for it to happen

seized this morning
with thoughts of you
I cry in my coffee

when I see your face
something tightens deep in my stomach
my tongue flicking hot
over my lips

when I see your
hauntingly beautiful face
I ache for a kiss
again
to be kissed everywhere
again
by
you

as you lie behind me
taking me like an animal
your teeth hard at my back

in your eyes I see
that I don’t want to die
I want to live

no I sob to you now
though you can’t hear me
shall never hear me

the secret is in your face
I know there I will ultimately
find the key

to let me hear music again
and know what you would
feel like deep inside me

as I stare at your beautiful mouth
aching for my body
to be pinned under yours

knowing it could never happen

but still yearning for

a kiss

II.

Oh, you’ve got it bad today, baby

what is it about
a particular convergence of angles
that hurtles me into this

my sex and my soul
weeping with poetry

don’t know whether I’m crying
or cumming
or both

oh god
just your mouth hovering over mine
biting my bottom lip

taking my fingers
and sucking on them
one by one

something hot jolts through me
my womb clenching at air

the details of your soul
your brilliant mind
lick hot circles onto my flesh

I could touch myself
and ease this agony
but I know with you
it wouldn’t be enough
there would be no satiation

III.

Soon I will get to see
my new therapist
I can tell him about my disease
and he can fix it

god, make it stop

until then
I shall lock the door
open my body to the shadows
close my eyes
and pretend

you own me