what lurks inside

As i puff my last cigarette
And drink my last drink
I wonder how my life will change
From here on, all i did was blink
For what lunrks inside
In some months I cant hide
Be it a he or a she
I will love eternally

I wonder what is to come
The changes, emotions, life
This blessing although unplanned
I have never wanted  more
To stay healthy and strong
Stress free is the challenge
But what lurks inside of me
Is the key to life and balance

No one ever really knows
What to expect when you in my shoes
But my love and my will
Will keep me from my blues
I will love what lurks inside my tummy
My life now belongs
Some may find this strange and funny
But it will be my baby in my caring arms