Like such shit

I’m thinking probably not anytime soon
You loon
You still swoon
And my feelings have drifted away
That is to say they existed anyway
But hey we can still hang out some day

Why must it hurt to feel the slightest love
It’s plaguing my mind with such stubborn cuffs
That I’ve tried to forget
But her smile begets
A longing a wanting
Hopeless to forget

I drift and ramble
I see nothing their
Open heart so I gamble
Cause lonesome so heard to bear
I sit
I can’t handle
These emotions I bare
I drift and ramble
Yet no one’s aware

I didn’t think I was waiting
I still feel as if
Not close to fading
Even the slightest bit
This time is sedating
My heart to emit
A want of dilating
But I feel like such shit