You Will Be Mine

We converse like nothing's changed
content with illusion we have remained
friends. I poured words I held for so long
to keep us the same, but it all went wrong.
I spoke delusional words nourished by hope
given by friends, the moment I couldn't cope
being just plutonic, with someone who infuriates
but at the same time infatuates
the very foundation of my soul, I'll long for you
even though no one will have a clue,
through my teeth I'll lie to everyone.
It'll take everything I have until I have none,
the lie that I will tell myself every waking day,
you may elude me for now but someday.
You Will Be Mine