How?

How can i think i loved you?
sure
your attractive
with gleaming eyes and a devious smile
beautiful face
stunning really , like a wild stallion running on the wind
but hell
untrustable-selfish-self destructive
you deserve loneliness and sorrow
because its your fault that you feel the way you do
your fault that you're lonely degraded and jaded
foolish mouse of a men
coward
i could stomp my foot and you'd jump
oh, selfish lover ,who made you like this but you
just because i'm female doesn't make me weak
but around you
you turn your eyes on my and my knees go weak
you awaken a hunger that i've never had
a hunger to make you happy
because its a task impossible
a smile never crosses your beautiful mouth
lest preceding action  
i hope you know
that thats not all i wanted from you
your complaints ring in my ears like bees
savage words
i was there by your side , bold,beautiful ,and gentle
yet you claimed you had no one to love
and pushed me off like i was a child
not yet to understand the great complexity of your shallow mind
of your problems
think again
you've blown your chance foolish boy
i speak of mice and men
of coragiouse cowards
you are pathetic where i thought you strong
a dick where i thought you a gentleman
the lion thought she had lain with one of her own
strong,beautiful , brilliant
but instead with an ass in lions clothing
everything i thought of you
wrong
all i had for love is now for shame
i cannot say i hate you
but i cannot help you
so go
with your words unspoken
i cant bear to hear more lies part from your beautiful lips
like hail from a storm cloud
you errode my soul
like a river on a bank
twisting my trust and my love
using me
bending me to your will
go you leech
find someone else
to seduce ,entice , then break
i cant do that job anymore
i will look elsewhere
leave if i have to
to ignore your petty advances
so get lost in your women , your booze , your drugs
i wont be your crying shoulder anymore
i vow to be civil
i wish you not harm ,nor death , nor heartbreak
i just hope you regret not the decisions you've made
but the way you chose to deal with them
i hope you regret casting away a woman who would have loved you
and loved to care for you
out of fear or whatever was on your senseless mind
i hope you miss me when i'm gone
i hope i come to your mind often
doesn't the ass now wish he had a force of power to back him up ?
a lion as an ally that would support his every endeavor
not anymore
doesn't he wish he was more of a lion himself
i hope you miss the graceful way my hips sway
the line of my body in the dark
and my blazing eyes
you always loved my blazing eyes
i hope you miss the sweetness in my voice
when i whisper in your ear
cause its gone now
i need a lion to roar from the tops of mountains
to run wild through the rain
to be brave with me
so no longer will i blemish your perfection
no longer will i vow to treat you like a king
lover , dearest , you no longer own me
you're on your own now
free