Dead Petals

I can hardly remember when tomorrow became today                                
But just because you lost me doesn't mean I'm lost                                
I may not be fine but at least I'm free under the nightblue sky                                
And I don’t want to love you, not anymore                              
Though every time I watch you leave, I wish you'd stay                                
                              
Now she’s staring at me with her pure, limpid eyes                                
All I can do is stare straight back, I can't let go of this moment                              
             
Her scent is my disguise, she pieces together the shards of my sanity                                
                              
Unpredictable like an undertow                                
You held me so tight, only to let go the next moment                              
                              
She's the single reason I start over and over and over again                                
Until her taste is on my lips, until her voice fills my lungs                                
I won't take another step, just make the loneliness fade                                
Embrace me and dampen my sore eyes                      
                              
No one knows that I stand at the boundary between light and dark                                
I've been here as long as I can recall and now I start to give in                                
All the things I once held so dearly in my heart has waned                                
There's no room for strength there  
I’m so tired of treading water  
I’m so tired                             
                              
You offer dreams, yet you bring decay              
The peace always turns into pain              
Please don't leave me here                    
Don't leave me                
                              
You swore we'd never break apart              
And to fill me drip by drip                
You swore we'd never break apart              
Drip by drip, hope runs out              
               
So close to the end          
But then again, I've always been    
Just another whisper in the night
               
I must endure                                
But what is left of me now                                
Walk until I collapse                            
In a world I can't stay            
         
Dead petals fall from the sky                                        
Where love means nothing              
Dead petals fall from the sky              
Where life means nothing            
               
Her rain flows through my veins, she purges me of this blackness  
Wash it all away      
                              
Unpredictable like an undertow                                
You held me so tight, only to let go      
You held me so tight