No Beginning To This Lie

So much struggle, pain an hurt I've seen since I was young. Going through it all for the little bit of happiness, no more than a spec. I cant feel nothing but sadness to think we are all living. I deny the more nights and days I am here. This isn't life. From the Beginning we were made to think that its true. Its the biggest lie to be forever denied. Made to be blinded, narrow minded to believe that this is life. This is hell. When you think about it, could you disagree? There is so much ugly we find to disguise as beauty. I dream of more life while I close my eyes then when I'm here.
What made me believe was a memories of the true feeling of a life. Paradise real and true. Crazy to think so and believe these thoughts I have and felt. Dammed to a cycle of death to live another lie of life in Hell.

The punish to an eternity

No happiness

Lies pain of lonelyness