When love turns to anger

I love you so much it's basically like I need you to function because the moment you aren't around after I've gotten so used to your presence is the moment I get so down...I get depressed...I'd rather die then not be by your side as cliché as that sounds I swear it isn't a lie. You are my favorite high...my favorite drug even though the side effects are horrible and leave me in a state of suicidal thoughts I see it as worth it,when you are here in my arms with your lips on mine eyes locked time stops you are my everything but your words and your actions never seem to completely match up and I'm so fed up with being hurt....how does love turn to anger? over time. When he keeps hurting you the love blindness fades and you start to see clearly and shit doesn't fly. After a while you get fed up and well...angry. My love is turning to anger and I don't want to hate you but you really aren't leaving me with much of a choice. I can't love someone who isn't here...who's never around it's not fair it's not fair I hate you I hate you I love you I love you I'm angry I'm angry I love you