Just a Nickle

I would spend countless minutes before leaving the store
Just staring, wondering if she even looked at me
We talked for a moment
brief, but well chosen
for the invitation was meant

She introduced me to her best friend, we spent hours laughing
engaging and blaring, like children almost screaming
we open the doors to the ship
it was not to far a trip
drunk everyday, waking like shit

She served me up double, the tequila running quick through my veins
the beverage of my people, making me almost sick
Into the outside, for a smokey surprise
Every five minutes, watching the nicotine sunrise
wasting away quickening our own demise

She probably felt so much less, but I begin to think more
We were living the moment with nothing to regret
We finally opened our palms
Fingers twisting like knots
making our way growing less apart

We watched movies and shows, circus clowns making Mary bloody
We kissed and kissed, our fingers twisting making fists
The pressure from our fingers
The aggression as we linger
the pleasure as i bust from within

With the year slowly drawing, I've overworked myself sick
I return to my home, awaiting her texts or calls in excitement
we spent days pampering our genitals
everyday making sure i trimmed my nails
wearing her scent never seemed to fail

I was ready, this night was to be special
I slowly began to fall asleep, i had outdone myself once again
I awoke to a reality of toys
We were nothing special just boys
She was our lion, we were Siegfried and Roy

There was no controlling her, but that was the agreement starting point
I felt used a little, But amused because it was the best week of the year
She's amusing and amazing
cute and fun chasing
some would catch me gazing

So here's a good day to you, thank you for the amazing week or so
I was a little hurt, but only because i was so lonely
Your cheerful and funny
hateful on the day, even when sunny
so wonderful, yet you keep running

I wrote this shortly after our fling, I wouldn't mind spending more time with you. I'm a very understanding person like I had mentioned before. I couldn't help but feel like things were possibly becoming a little more. Deep down inside I knew that things were possibly going to end soon. I've had one of the craziest and stupidest years of my life and to spend the last week with you nuzzled in my arms....it was amazing. Even if this doesn't make a difference and quite possibly pushes you away. I just wanted you to know the honest truth about how i felt.