1:09 A.M - 1/1/14

One hour
Nine minutes
After New Years
I did not get a kiss
You wished me well
And said you loved me
No matter what and I didn't
Think anything, so I said I love
You too and told you to have fun
With her, your best friend that you'd
Been blowing me off for the past three
Days.

The next thing
I know, I get a text
Saying that we needed
To talk about us, and I asked
If you were leaving me again, and
You said yes, you'd come over later to
Explain.

I waited
And waited
And waited for
You to come over
And tell me you didnt
Mean what you had said
Earlier. But you never came
So still, I waited and waited for
You.

Two days
Later until I
Finally get a
Text from you
Asking if I'm home
So I say yes and fear
Clouds my mind as I get
Ready to see you for the first
Time in days. I even bother to get
Dressed up and do my hair so maybe you won't
Leave.

You arrive
And all you say
Is "hey" and don't
Even bother to hug me
That's when I knew it was
Over.

You said
That you didn't
Want me anymore
That I was too young
And you wanted to focus
On yourself and get shit straight
You were stone cold as I cried softly
Wishing that this weren't true please god
I begged you to stay and told you I loved you
But you never said that you ever loved me once
Back.

But you
Did have the
Sympathy to wipe
My tears away and hug
Me as I cried my heart out
And told you that I hoped you
Found whatever you were looking
For.

Goodbye,
Look at me, Skyla.
It will be okay. Don't cry.
But I'm not dumb, Victor, babe..
No matter how many times you say it,
I know in my heart it won't ever fucking be
OK.

You kissed
My for head one
Last time and I tip toed
And gave you a kiss on the cheek.
I slipped out of your arms and turned
Away.

Goodbye.