what have i done

staring at my reflection
asking my self why
but i cant answer the question
im stuck at a cross roads
i have no idea where to go  
i hate what ive done
i hate that i did it
but i wouldn't take it back
no i dont regret it
my smile is my disguise
ive done some things people may despise
my eyes
thats where my demands hide
something i inside
something so dark
something so cold
something  that monster a holds
but why dont i give it away
throw it away
let it go
...oh thats why....
because it ME  it MY SOUL