Words of the Enemy

Throughout life, I had often seen
flickering memories on a silver screen.
And as I watch my regrets unfold
sadness attunes, and begins to take hold.
Faster and faster that spiral spins
as guilt enhances the depth of my sins.
And as I marvel at my inadequacy
The enemy displays his consistency.

"Once you descend beyond that stage
then you and I can share the rage.
Nothing really matters since life is a lie
there's no reason to, but go on and try.
You'll open your eyes just to be blinded
by the guilt in which you're constantly reminded.
Hope with high hopes, so they can be crushed
admit love to the one who loathes your touch.

Pour out your love, so it too can perish
renounce adoration for all that you cherish.
Your heart beats on, just to be broken
its best to discard this useless token.
Dare to dream greater than you can achieve
and lose sight of what you actually believe.

Let down your guard, to be forced into hiding
still sadness shows no signs of subsiding.
Give everything that you have, then give more
till the withering emptiness erodes your core.
Give into to arrogance, to think that you belong
knowing that the truth is just one sad song.

Trying to win while you constantly lose
is like trying to escape quicksand in concrete shoes.
The sooner you realize that your feelings are nil
the sooner your hatred zones in for the kill.
The best thing to do is go totally numb
and seal up your feelings where they came from.
In the end, no one cares what you think
no one cares how far you will sink.

None will cry as you depart
and love won't mend your broken heart.
You are alone, and will continue to be
and there is no one to run to, but lil ol me.
Time after time you will return
maybe one day you will truly learn.
Hope is the enemy, and time will attest
that when you are down, you're at your best.

Yet disappointment will continue it's rule
so long as you whimper and act as a fool.
You will be miserable for all of your days
and will lose everything throughout this phase.
Nothing will befall you, but failure and regret
you will be nothing, your future is set.

I am the opposition burning deep within you
and will detest and destroy all that you do.
So go on and "hope" there is something to gain
I will watch and laugh as you try to sustain.

In the end only us two will remain
since joy is a fable, when all you know is pain."