Where to go from here

They say that every heartache fades away and that every storm that runs, runs out of rain
I believe that to be true because see this pain I go through won't last long
It'll soon be cured by every happy thought and every song
I'm starting to smile more now and not because I'm over it and not because of the people who actually care
I'm smile now because I know that everything happens for a reason
For every push there's a pull
And that everything that happens it happens in a season
For months and months I've listened to your beautiful lies
Everyday that I could I would see a lost soul in your beautiful eyes
I don't write this poem to reach for your heart. no, there's no time for that
I'm writing this to get to your mind. Your head. That crazy beautiful brain of yours.
Most people can't keep up with you or understand what you do or say but I do
It doesn't scare me away no it pulled me closer to you because I found someone just as crazy as me
But the difference between me and you is...what made me crazy was believing you when you said you wanted me.
After all the scandals and secrets I still loved and loved
Isn't that crazy? Isn't that insane?
You were able to bring this man to his lowest just to keep you in his life
But I'm trying to figure out now was it really worth all the strife?
All that you've done to me and what you're doing now, it'll all pay off one day. For you and me.
As I said before this isn't for your heart I'm not chasing after that anymore because I know that it'll be and endless run.
But my heart you already have it. All of it. I'm not asking for it back, not just yet. I want you to keep it along with your scars to remind you what you gave up. To remind you who your first love was and should be.....

And also remember I loved you at your darkest