deepest cut

I hate it here,
I hate everything she has done...
I hate how she ruined our family....
Our lives...
Yet...you sit there and watch.
You watch the yelling,
You watch the anger go through me.
Yet you say you love her.
I drink and do drugs,
Smoking cigarettes knowing it slowly kills me...
I have scars all over,
But you dont notice the new ones.
I hate what she has done to you,
Making you go against your own children....
But I will fight back...
I will kill the pain she makes me have,
I will turn it into anger...
I'm sick of this life,
But I won't kill myself.
Because one day...
You will see what I will become...
You will regret not helping me...
You will see what you just lost.
I will no longer forgive.
I will no longer play your games.
If you want war....this means war...
I will have her bowing down to me.
I no longer have a heart...
I no longer have feelings.
I hate her.
I hate how she treats me like a slave.
Think your going to keep in contact with me?
Think again.
Once I get the chance...
I'm gone.
I will no longer be your little bitch.
Good luck on getting me back.
You might need it.
But she is not my mother,
You were....
She is not my "father"
My fucking biological father is.
You are trapped in her spell...
She is all you have to help you say?
She is all you want in the world you say?
Then fucking have her.
I will not be back...
I will not be here to see you die,
I will not be here to see how you feel bad....
Good fucking bye...