life

There words are stuck in my mind
Coming from people of every kind
No matter how popular
There words turned in to blackness
Witch turned in to rage
I took it out of my self
Can show you all my scars
I know all there stories
I know my life wasn’t  ment to last longer than 14 years
My brother who says I should be dead
He Doesn’t know I used to cut
Every night in my bed  
And in my head
I’ve killed my self over 1000 times
Day after day
I get called gay
Fat
Ugly
Dumb
 Words hurt more then the razor
I used to cut with
                                                                Having a good day that is a myth
If you see me smile
Take a picture
That only happens once in a while
Isn’t it funny how I allways fight
With the voices in my head
They want me dead
They know im going to fail
They  wont shut up
Buda dup da dup dadadadadup



Can some one take this away
I cant stand it another day
I deal with this pain
The guilt is driving me in sane
I caused her to die
It should have been me
Isn’t that plain to see
But her wings were clipped
And I was free
I will see her soon
That isn’t a threat
But a promis
If you don’t hear from me
In 3 days you can bet
Im no longer living
A bullet to the head ill soon be dead
I hated to see her cry
I didn’t know I would force her to die
But if I did I would change it all
If I could go back in time she would never fall
I would hold her high
Make her feel like she could fly
But I cant