my tone

Excuse my tone of voice it may seem as if I am being cold towards you but I promise it's not you that I'm angry or upset with its the situation I put myself in I took everything I had for granted trying to find something new only to find out that everything that I once had was everything that I needed so yes I am angry because now I am stuck somewhere I don't want to be and no matter how I try to make the best out of this situation everything continues to take a turn for the worse so please try to ignore the tone in my voice that seems a bit hostile cause its not you that I have these ill thoughts about its everything else that I've been going through and I have to admit that I'm glad you aren't here face to face with me because if you saw the fading mark on my wrist I could promise that you wouldn't be too happy with me but I am trying....I'm trying to cope with everything that is being thrown at me but I am only one person and sometimes I need help but no one is helping me....I'm on my own so please be patient with me cause this tone in my voice is not directed at you it's directed at everything else