Eyes Open

Finally I can walk around this place
With an authentic smile upon my face
Though the scars you left can't be erased
I've lifted myself out of that haze
I've been and know that I'll be okay
Cuz I possess strength to find brighter days
And I'm willing to do whatever it takes
To make change and learn from mistakes
I still remember when you would claim
That you wanted to do the same
How I made you realize what's right
How I inspired you to change your life
But as things began to unfold
I saw truth in the lies you told
Actions done simply out of fear
Your lack of feelings for me were clear
Just an easy access point receptive to your connection
Guess that's the reason you craved my heartfelt affection
Every fiber of me giving you all that you need
Smooth performance and content delivery with adequate speed
But you were just a user so I had to pass on your word
Cut off the supply to all the love you never deserved
Connect with myself in ways you never could
And reach those depths that I knew you never would
Because I'm working harder than you were willing to
Finding everything in me that I wanted in you
Making the commitment to be the best that I can be
And letting go of expectations that anyone has of me
I'll use all my flaws to repair parts of me you killed
And I'll remember that foundations are something two people build
At every turn I'll refuse to hold them up on my own
Because thanks to you I know I'd much rather walk alone
Sure you broke me down but it was nothing I couldn't fix
You couldn't take the love I have inside it still exists
Though you helped raise my defenses to an even higher state
New connections and experiences I still can embrace
And as I take this moment of time to reflect
I know the decision I made to leave you was best
It feels so good to not allow mistreatment of my heart
And to be reminded that I'm strong enough to pick up and restart
Because I once lived on false hope that you'd make up your mind
Worked on everything I could think of to try
Rode the illusionistic waves until a part of me died
But I've felt so alive since the night I opened my eyes