everything but nothing

frustration's got me trapped in a vice
of impotence, numbness - sense has no touch,
i've been humbled by actions that mean so much
then never seem to mean enough
and i lose myself in the ether
of all the shit that floats round around my head
but it's not that hard to find again
just stop and look and recover,
again - fuck it,
there's no book of rules and laws and conditions,
can only learn from too many mistakes
but never enough to make.