Impossible

I feel this empty hole in my heart.
Who knows what i'm searching for,
but i don't love him any longer so i'm out here exploring.

Some days I can't hold back the tears.
I don't even care who notices anymore,
because i'm not even close to hiding my emotions.

I could care less what hes doing.
At times I reminiscence about certain moments,
and i have to remind myself i'm going too far into the past.

I've come so close to finding happiness but the next second i'm right back at feeling the same way again.

I shouldn't even be here after what I've been through
so i'm no longer scared to show my face around.
Although I hide in the house all day.

They say time heals,
I wonder how longs it takes for pain to go away
because i can't sit here everyday hoping to find a way.

Going back would be my biggest mistake
and at this point it's impossible to do anyway.
I don't even know why I even think about it.