God Sit Me Down

Can I trust you....are you real? So many times I thought I knew...Can you show me...Can I once feel how real you are? Does God own a house....can I walk up and just knock ....can he sit and have coffee.... Would he sit and just talk....some time that why a person has crisis of faith....can my human creator become what he creates.....to many times I want a person A human body of mind....and I believe to surely see god.... Then he would surely see me.....I would love to hear why he created me.... I would cry over a written diary of me.... I get afraid with no answers to my life ... Please creator will I make a solid soul...I'll collect when I am old... Do u want to hear my heart my written dreams of poetry ...or will u stay hidden and never let known that u are a awesome being.... Think of this topic I speak of not sins in being a little teacher things u want me to honor u honor me explain  my begin my middle and my future an my last poetry end .... Love Meshelly