torn to shreds

this cancer is feeding off of me
its making it hard to want to breathe
a thought in the back of my mind
slowly wasting away my time
im melting into this bed
nothing more needs to be said
my girl left me now im alone
not a friend around im on my own
this black terror seeps out of my thoughts
it plagues my actions and comes out in clots
my face show signs of abuse and woe
no happiness will ever again show
earth took the soul right out of me
she crushed it and threw it on the floor
most would call it blasphemy
some could consider it more