Fuck the Bliss

Fuck you and your false promises.
Don't make another move, don't take a step closer.
I'm lying here on the floor giggling like a child.
Isn't that enough?
Isn't that what you wanted?

Always taking more.
Always stealing what you want.
Take my money, take my breath,
take everything I have.

Fuck you and this cancer that I have.
I want to put you down, but I can never get enough.
Get of my head.
Get out of my life.
Get out of my lungs.
Stay away from my mind.

I'm in a fragile state,
I have way too much to lose.
Watch me crash, and fall, and burn,
only to still end up craving you.

Fuck you and the hope that you gave.
Fuck the bliss,
forget the smiles.
Fuck the reality from which you'd take me,
and fuck the laughs,
the stupid "friends,"
the false hope,
and especially,
every single memory.
Because even though I remember that,
there's so much more I've forgotten,
so much I can't get back.
There's so much that now is gone,
and never can be gotten.