Left Me Behind

I wanted to love you  
I wanted the pain in my chest to mean something  
What the fuck am I going to do now?  
You took up so much space in my head already  
Even when it's been so long since I've been near you  
Those moments were everything  
I'll never see you again and it hurts so much to know that  
"What if" haunted me for a long time and now it's going to gnaw on me  
Corrode me, hack away my insides until there's nothing left  
The hole in my chest is going to only get bigger  
I wanted to be someone you could love  
I wanted so much that I could never ask you for  
And now I never will  
You're gone, just like everyone else I let in  
It hurts  
It fucking hurts