Where do I go?

Feel like going back home..
but home is where your heart is
and the only heart I have
Pumps blood to my brain
Which logically puts arguments for
me to stay & not to sway.
Webs of cause & effect
And consequences keep me in check
Amidst the beautiful wreck
of regrets & mistakes.
Where am I now? Do you know?
I’d drown if I don’t swim
against the flow
I don’t know where my home is
Maybe I am too lost
to be found again.
It’s difficult if the compass just
makes you go round and round in circles
an alternating sequence
of light & darkness.
Or perhaps I am living inside my head
Putting a body out there
that walks & talks
For me instead.
How can you find something that never was?
can there be an effect without a cause?