shes && her darkness.

my brains poisons my heart
seems i was fucked up from the start  
never feeling a feeling that felt real
shunned away as an outcast  
disregarding my troubles
that trickled up my spine
like a cold chill
that crucified my cries
it ate my mind  
i was captivated by horror
hopelessly holding on
devouring vacant minds for dinner
impossible to engorge with an entree so empty
so do you see me
or do you see the projection
in which i've presented  
distracted with a smile so innocent and pure
portraying  a purpose in a life
of purity and prosperity  
i am the definition of the prefix happy
although i smile  
and although laugh
my soul is a beast thriving to feast
sucking the life out of the weak
im guilty of a stolen innocence  
im guilty of  a broken family  
im guilty in taking pain as pleasure  
my ability to love was ripped away  
so now i slither on the floor in shame  
contorting around confusion
casting the spell of love, desire, & lust.
how far can i take you; how can i make you bust  
this is all a sick game i play
to watch my minions is a must.