Nightmare

He sits in a clinic
his body is numb
waiting for the doctor
to bring him the outcome

Promiscuous was he at a very early age
this could be the last chapter of
his story page

He never did drugs with a needle injection
so how did he contract this deadly
infection ?
in his adolescent years , he was teased and
mocked
never showing interest to the girls on the block .

Different was he because he yearned male
compatibility
outcast from his family
the rejection made him so sad
especially when his fater would tease him
in front of his friends
saying
"he's the best daughter I never had"

he sits in a hotel room
as tears fall down from his eyes
reflections of the life he's led
the life he's grown to dispise
he grabs the gun from the nightstand
as he jumps off the bed
and points the gun to his head
while saying to himself
"I'm better off dead "

suddenly he is awakened
by the doctor
now tapping him on his shoulder
saying the test for HIV was negative
and now his nightmare is over

Excerpt from the poetry collection  Tales from the concrete jungle