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Suicide April 8th, 2011
I am fine. Fine. Fine. Fine. Blaine killed himself this morning. Last year it was Travis. Couple years before that it was Devon. This is depressing..What is wrong with us kids from Small-Town? Is life so unbearable? I know I have thought many times it is, but never had I the courage to pull the trigger. Is it courage or is it cowardice that makes someone commit suicide?
It's such a shock because he's someone I grew up with in high school. Someone as young as I am. Barely 21. Someone I had a crush on my freshmen and sophomore years. He was my favoirte person in high school because he did what he wanted and didn't care what people thought.
Maybe he did care..
He was the only person in our small town that had a mohawk. That liked punk rock and wore spikes on his jacket and wore thick heavy black boots with shorts. He was someone I haven't seen in three years. I wish I had. It wouldn't make a difference.
Life is so disposable. I hate it. Is death permanent?
It's such a shock because he's someone I grew up with in high school. Someone as young as I am. Barely 21. Someone I had a crush on my freshmen and sophomore years. He was my favoirte person in high school because he did what he wanted and didn't care what people thought.
Maybe he did care..
He was the only person in our small town that had a mohawk. That liked punk rock and wore spikes on his jacket and wore thick heavy black boots with shorts. He was someone I haven't seen in three years. I wish I had. It wouldn't make a difference.
Life is so disposable. I hate it. Is death permanent?
Published 9th Apr 2011
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11th Apr 2011 5:14pm
It's courage to keep striving, but in some ways I can understand the sense of loss and feeling as though death could alleviate the despair. Sometimes it feels as though there's nothing that can change a circumstance, and that is the real motivation behind it. But I found the more I strove to live despite trying circumstances, the stronger I became and more equipped to face the very cause of my suffering. Whether or not we exist after life may be a question, but it's not the most important part of the equation, Free-Will is and how we make choices to respond to situations. I believe in Reincarnation and the after-life, but to commit suicide can possibly limit our freedom to change a situation, and do the exact opposite...which is not really what anyone wants.
Souls are not invisible they are "what's within", they are the ALL of who we are. Mind, Body, Spirit, Earth, Universe...I think we are kind of like the whole equation and that's what needs to be understood. The Sum of all parts.
I struggled with the thoughts of suicide before, and the more I carried on with life the more equipped I was to face the fear. I'm not afraid very much anymore.
Peace :)
Souls are not invisible they are "what's within", they are the ALL of who we are. Mind, Body, Spirit, Earth, Universe...I think we are kind of like the whole equation and that's what needs to be understood. The Sum of all parts.
I struggled with the thoughts of suicide before, and the more I carried on with life the more equipped I was to face the fear. I'm not afraid very much anymore.
Peace :)
