I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUCK THIS IS ........................

Why am I still alive I cant stand this world any longer.

Every night I cry wishing that I could die .

What is the point in this fight .

I fight to just keep myself from breaking.

Why can't I just take a gun and blow my brains out .

But instead every night I fall asleep while crying.

What am I suppose to do ?

I am not alright even if I am sitting in front of you smiling .

No one sees what is going on inside me  no one cares at the end of the day I am stuck waiting and crying .

I cant live anymore I dont want to fight I dont want to be part of this world any longer.

Maybe it's time to give up and not fight any longer and just become what I know I was all along  something that should never have been alive in the first place .

Brother where have you gone I can't hear your voice any longer I dont remember what it sounds like.

Brother please if you can hear me just send something to come and kill me I cant go on any longer  and for that I am sorry.......