scared memories

I lay here and think
about what I could have done
to save you
you told me you loved me and I believed you
you said we would be together forever
That will never happen
you said that you would never hurt me
It was only a lie
you hurt me
every time I see you walk past in the hall
you  kill me every time you hug me and tell me it will be fine
Every time you smile at me I sink a little farther into the dark
Every time I here your voice
I want to cut my wrist and bleed
But I know it won’t help me
I wish I could have saved you
From the fate you brought on your self
But it was your own fault
For swallowing that bottle of pills
And now my best friend you’re gone for ever
And I will be next
Right behind u…