My Life

Fears ...    
Too many to count  
Tears ...  
Enough to cleanse this drought    
Life ...  
So rough  
Time is flying by ...  
Man, this shit is tough.  
13 years old introduced to meth  
Realizing now it's the cause of my own death.  
Everything turned sour ...  
As each second passed by.  
I'm trying to find faith in a "higher power"  
To release the pain...  
And rid myself of all this regret.  
Chained to temptation ...  
No wonder I can't rest.  
The world around me is crashing,  
Fading ... Into oblivion.  
As everyone sits around clueless ...  
Continually sinning.  
My minds turned to mush.  
God, what kind of game are you playing?  
Trapped in this hell, where there's no chance of me winning.  
There's too much commotion.  
Will I ever find freedom ...  
in this maze we call life?  
I'm steady moving forward  
But I keep finding myself back in the same damn place.  
I'm trying to find the good in all of this ...  
How can I when the world is filled with doubt?  
There's too many obstacles blocking my way.  
 
There is no truth!  
It's all a facade!!!  
Stuck in this space of lost time,  
Hidden behind a wall of lies.  
It will never stop raising.  
My mind will constantly be racing.  
And this thing we call peace,  
I will forever be chasing.  
In this chaotic entrapment I call ...  
My life.  
As I tell myself to give it time,  
That everything will be alright ...  
I found myself stuck in my own demise.  
   
Written by: Mariah Dalli