10 Honest Remarks I Can't Say to Your Face

1. I like you. And you do not like me

2. I try to deny this fact by staying in touch. But you continue to blow me off. This bothers me

3. The fact that it bothers me bothers me. Because I never expected anything more from you.

4. The fact that I never expected anything more is a loud cry. Saying my existence is merely a welcome mat you use on your exit. I never really could hold your gaze long enough to see if you ever saw me.

5. You’re leaving me mid-drink again in the pool with your older friend. I do not trust him. You do not explain why you are leaving. You’re just.. gone

6. This is not the first time you’ve left me. Halfway through the night while I’m between various levels of tipsy and the liquor knows my name better than I do. You left me with older men. To fend for myself. Finally feeling like the stray hair you flick off your shoulders. Even after that I still wanted you. The untouchable man. Stone cold and unapologetic.

7. The fact that I don’t hate you after that bothers me.

8. The fact that it bothers me, bothers me. Because I never expected anything more from you.

9. The fact that I never expected anything more is a whispered cry of my set worth. Because

10. I like you. And you do not like me.