Everything You Did

My words remained silent
Knowing I’ve had your heart for years
Paralyzed by the thought of dying alone
I feared loving you even more
As we get older the fears are no longer the same

Everything you did to express it
All I did to try and bury it
Wasn’t because I didn’t want to feel
It was because I was afraid to end up broken
And never have the capability to heal

Our magical moments spoke volumes
Even the unspoken ones where we just knew
These moments are not the same served as memories
It’s as if the magic over time has become a myth
And as you did for years I try to hold on

Everything you did to express it
All I did to try and bury it
Wasn’t because I didn’t want to feel
It was because I was afraid to end up broken
And never have the capability to heal

Looking at the lone picture I have of you
Seems to be all I have left
What I wouldn’t do to hear your pretty voice
To gently grace the side of your cheek
Starring into your eyes and kissing your smile

Everything you did to express it
All I did to try and bury it
Wasn’t because I didn’t want to feel
It was because I was afraid to end up broken
And never have the capability to heal

The emptiness mixes with your absence
Together they stain my heart with sorrow
So afraid that if I loved you
Then the day came where I lost you
The paralyzing fear would consume my life

I know see that by not allowing myself to love you
I in turn decided to live with that fear.