Just another night

This pain I feel
Is it fake or real?
I’m I still broken or am I finally healing?
This pain is hurting worse
Whats going on am I okay?
Everything is going blurry
Why is the room spinning?
This is hurting to much
I can’t take it
Its to much for me to handle
Why are there tears coming down my face?
like a melting candle
My head hurts bad
Please stop!
Breathing in and out fast
Faster and faster
I breathe in and out
Then I go breathless for a few minutes
It hits me
I start breathing again
Then I black out
Whats happening ?
Why is this happening to me?
Then I come back
Theres something sharp in my hand
Why is there blood on me?
What did I do?
Cuts all over my arm
On my knees
Thinking and thinking
Maybe I should just end it all
I bleed until I pass out….
I wake up like nothing happen
Just another night..