Online lover.  ( confession)

She is my online lover. We have yet to meet. Yet i cant can't get her out of mind. We have spoken on the phone and though tiny windows on a computer and telephone. We have seen picture and spoken many words both mentally and sexually fueled conversations that last into the morning. Speaking of everything and nothing at the same time. Our darkest secrets and desires for one another. She has become my drug of choice. Rising the dopamine  count in my brain every time we speak. I want to run away with her and spend an eternity. I have never been so attached to someone that i have never met before. I want her so bad i can taste it. Not just her body. I want our souls to collide. She has become my muse. I don't know if she will like the me the world perceives. I am falling fast and hard. That scares me and excites me at the same time. I have only known her a short time and it feels like i have known her my whole life. I am scared to tell her how i feel about her. She knows that i want to have her in my bed. She doesn't know i want her in my heart. I only write this here because i know she wont see it. Maybe if she did she would know how i feel. Maybe if she did she wouldn't want to know how i feel. And that scares me the most. I want to move forward but i don't want to lose my online lover...